If one door closes another will open, God never gives you more than you can handle, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger,  God has a plan ..... 

I have heard those saying many times in my life. I politely agree but that little voice inside my head is sarcastically thinking  yeah ok ..........Mainly because I fixate on TRYING to be in control of things I have no control over. 

Well I can say without doubt that I BELIEVE in each one of those statements.  

My daughter diagnosis allowsed her to start school at 3.5 . I was so nervous! My baby was going to be away from me 4 days aweek for 6 hours a day . She would be at the elementary school in our district and she has autism!!!!!! Again I was terrified not knowing what to expect.  Well as it turns out that year was the beginning of a harmonious 7 years. She had a fantastic school experience. The faculty and students were exactly want parents pray for. In the 5th and 6th grade the  boys would carry her book bag for her. The kids would run to sit by her at lunch . Life was good . When she entered the 6th grade it hit me "oh crap" what are going to do about her transitioning to 7th grade?? Because of her birthday date ,she was always a grade ahead.  Problem solved because of her age I could hold her back if necessary. She would have one more year of harmony !!! Meanwhile I had to have a plan B . I started looking at private schools in the area, and I was not satisfied with what I was seeing . 

So remember the saying God works in mysterious ways??? Well I believe that with all my heart. 

I was on the way home from dropping my daughter off at school when I got a text about another private school opening with a focus on autistic students.  I contacted the owners of the school that was opening and I immediately knew this was the answer to my prayers . I was still contemplating keeping my daughter at her old school ,and I was praying that I would get a sign telling what to do . After weeks of praying I got my sign . The principal ( who I adored and grew clise too) was promoted to the head of Special Ed for our parish ( that's what we call county's in Louisiana). Well once I got that news I knew what to do . She moved schools did fantastic,unfortunately the school closed .We were devastated.  It was like losing a family member. Panic set in and then one door closed another one opened. Our CPA recommended the school she attends now. God works in mysterious ways. The owner who is a great education and person filled an open position at her new school.

She again has wonderful teachers . She is with students that all have EXCEPTIONALITIES!!!  She continues to grow everyday.  We are blessed that her new school is wonderful too. The owner ,and staff made us feel like family. I feel as though she will reach her full academic potential there. She is very comfortable with her peers , and has even made two friends. I look forward to sharing a second part to  this entry. I am so excited to write about her accomplishments  this year.  Letting go of my fear was tough.  So one door closed and another one opened really resonates with me. 

So why did I title this LOSING MY RELIGION ITS NOT WHAT YOU THINK ?

I am a big REM fan and there is a verse in the song Losing My Religion that sticks in my mind. I imagine God looking down to remind me I am not in control .

I  thought that I heard you laughing 

I thought that I heard you sing 

I think I thought I saw you try